Lana's first meltdown

Lana had her first emotional meltdown tonight. Addelynn is rapidly developed an obsession with sucking whenever she is awake (even after being well fed). She'll constantly try to suck on anything available... her hand, my bicep, the blanket, your finger etc... Tonight she entered a mode where she was hysterical if there was nothing to suck on, even though she had just ate. In the picture to the right, she was cranking hard on my pinky for 15 minutes, now can really see why Lana is a little sore.

Anyway, Addelynn was in the nursery for about an hour and half for her normal daily checkup and to hang out while the two of us attended the Departure Class. (story for another time, but let's just say everyone in the class was sleeping at some point during it). When Addelynn returned, one of the nurses had given her a pacifier to understandably make her stop crying,

We weren't upset, but not too sure we wanted to continue to use one much. Especially this early on. Later that night around 7pm, I ran out get dinner from bw3's while Lana finished nursing since the food here is horrible. When I returned, Addelynn was peacefully sleeping, but with a pacifier in her mouth and my wife burst into tears with feelings of guilt... that this would create issues with breast feeding, and long term dependence with sleeping. Basically second guessing herself on if this is a battle worth fighting; potentially long term effects or intentionally choosing to let her new born be miserable.

Quite frankly, I am a little frustrate around this whole, "what you need to do for breast feeding" thing; I swear no two people say the same thing and everyone states their opinions as fact. We're told conflicting information all the time: "You should definitely do X", then later "whatever you do, never do X". This is insane. With my wife's general tendency to 2nd guess herself, this is not helpful. No matter what she does, she feels like its wrong. Luckily we had a new nurse just come on shift and check in as Lana was venting to me. She did a great job meeting Lana where she was at and talking her through it.